if I was still in school, Sunday night would be a time to finish all the homework I forgot about, studying for tests or maybe (if I was lucky) watching TV and hanging out with my family.
here though, Sunday night is (for me at least) the time where I get to take a look back at all that has happened in the past week. Filling out my weekly reflection often starts out as a chore but in the end leaves me with a great sense of accomplishment. Sort of a: "look at what has happened to me".
This whole weekend though, has been a great resting and preparing weekend. Because I leave for Ukraine in 5 days (which still shocks me) I'm really trying to get everything ready that needs to be readied now.
Writing letters, trips to Wal-Mart, lots of 'last skype dates' before I leave the country.
Generally just 'preparing'.
One thing though, that I've realized is how fortunate I have been to go through this experience of Trek training. I mean, I've known all throughout how blessed I am to have gone through this... but winding down to the end, I am beginning to realize just how amazing this process is. The whole time I have been looking at this process of 'training' as preparing for my time in Ukraine, but really Trek training is meant to go a lot further and deeper then I think I will realize in the next couple of months.
The analogy they use is 'trying to drink water out of a firehose'.
difficult task? no kidding.
the things we are talking about, practices coming into play, sessions we are being taught are constantly bombarding us from all sides, and i've heard more then once that processing this whole experience of just training will take years.
in fact, leaving out the whole assignment phase of this, training has been such an invaluable experience to me.
the ability to experience so many new things. living in community. living away from home. sitting and soaking in the presence of Jesus. listening to the wisdom of people who have lived much more life then I have.
taking this ride thus far has been incredible. in fact i almost look at the next few months in Ukraine and go "God, how can you blow my mind more then you already have?".
but that's one of the beautiful thing about this thing we call faith. there is always deeper, there is always more. you have never hit the depths or heights that it reaches to. but the further you dive and the further you reach, the more you fall in love with it. the more you yearn to know more. I'm so excited to Ukraine. and terrified, but mostly excited. I know God will stretch me and grow me so much in these next few months. Living amongst a people who believe for the most part that either salvation was bought and paid for with their infant baptism and know nothing of a personal relationship with Christ or people who have rejected the faith altogether. Like I said, this time will stretch me, grow me. And I could not be any more excited.
Love.
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